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Sunday, August 15, 2010

Trusting a Mother's Instinct

Can I open my heart and share?

Have you ever had one of those dreaded feelings, like
something is just NOT adding up?  You keep thinking
it's this, or that, but your gut just won't shut up?

We had a situation last night with my daughter and I
could NOT shake a horrible feeling.  I don't know if in all of her
18 years that I have ever felt it so strongly like this.
Oh at every turn I kept hoping for the best, just kept
hoping that my mind was overacting. 
Only to have each and everything we (me/hubs) were
thinking was beginning to show that my
instincts were right.

So a situation was confronted and this momma
is so glad she DID *listened* to that still small voice
from deep within...
yet a part of me wishes it didn't have to happen.
Daughter is safe, but in a hole heap of trouble
due to broken trust.

I cannot help but think of how often I have
broken a trust.  Even lied to cover up something
I didn't want to face.  Oh doesn't parenting
some time throw our own weakness right back 
in our faces and make us deal with our own inadequacies?

I am so thankful for REAL forgiveness.  
A true repentant heart is one that the
Lord can take an offense and use it for HIS good.

For that past few days I have been led to read Psalms 91
and today it brought my grieving hurting Mother's heart a much needed
rest.  A rest in my Lord who is there with me
through it all.

Psalms 91
 1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
       will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
 2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
       my God, in whom I trust."
 3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
       and from the deadly pestilence.
 4 He will cover you with his feathers,
       and under his wings you will find refuge;
       his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
 5 You will not fear the terror of night,
       nor the arrow that flies by day,
 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
       nor the plague that destroys at midday.
 7 A thousand may fall at your side,
       ten thousand at your right hand,
       but it will not come near you.
 8 You will only observe with your eyes
       and see the punishment of the wicked.
 9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
       even the LORD, who is my refuge-
 10 then no harm will befall you,
       no disaster will come near your tent.
 11 For he will command his angels concerning you
       to guard you in all your ways;
 12 they will lift you up in their hands,
       so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
 13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
       you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
 14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
       I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
 15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
       I will be with him in trouble,
       I will deliver him and honor him.
 16 With long life will I satisfy him
       and show him my salvation."

Trusting in HIM


Kathy said...

Good girl,
Listen to those instincts.
God gave you those for parenting especially.
God Bless.
xoxo~kathy @
Sweet Up-North Mornings...

Connie said...

Never, ever doubt that still small voice, sugar! Trust me on that one. Hope all is well now.

Sandi@ Rose Chintz Cottage said...

Lorena, I know just what you're talking about! I'm so glad that God puts within our hearts the capacity to love our children the way we do. With that love, comes His still small voice which sends us to our knees on their behalf. Thanks for sharing and I pray that all is well in your situation.

Blessings and hugs,

The Polka Dot Closet said...

I don't know quite what you are talking about, but I do know to trust that instinct. Our children often disappoint us, but remember how many times we disappointed out parents and they disappointed their parents. It is all a part of learning and what makes us who we are.


Shirl said...

Hi Lorena, I'm so glad that she is alright, yes we still have to trust our instincts. I read this psalm every night for my son and grandson, Bob also took it with him to Afgan and gave copies out to friends who he thought might like to read it.
Love ya, Shirl
Shirls Rose Cottage

luluslovlies said...

My dear Lorena, Always trust you instincts, but know that you will never be given more than you can handle, sometimes a situation or problem can be a blessing or gift in disguise even though it may not seem so at the time, as something is always learned from a situation even if we don't realize it until much later in time. I know also that when one door closes another one opens even if it is ever so slowly. Blessings to you and your daughter. XOXO Prayers for both of you.

Vicki said...

Lorena, my sweet friend,
You have a mother's heart and are attuned to your family and their needs. I know God will continue to give you strength and comfort. This scripture has given me strength time and time again. Sending you love and prayers~Vicki

Holly- Girls At Heart said...

Oh yes! When I was raising all my teen boys, that instinct came in real handy! Now let's see how I handle this last boy! ♥


Hi Lorena,
My DD gave me many a troubles/concerns and I know that God protected her and still does!
I hope all is better today!
deb :)

Secondhandrose said...

Lorena, I am sorry you had to experience that but it was also another experience of forgiveness and you can never have too many of those.


Sue said...

I'm a new blogger, but I've been reading yours for a while. I'm going through similar things with my own 17 year old daughter. Thanks for the encouragement that God is with us.