Trusting a Mother's Instinct

Can I open my heart and share?

Have you ever had one of those dreaded feelings, like

something is just NOT adding up?  You keep thinking

it's this, or that, but your gut just won't shut up?

We had a situation last night with my daughter and I

could NOT shake a horrible feeling.  I don't know if in all of her

18 years that I have ever felt it so strongly like this.

Oh at every turn I kept hoping for the best, just kept

hoping that my mind was overacting. 

Only to have each and everything we (me/hubs) were

thinking was beginning to show that my

instincts were right.

So a situation was confronted and this momma

is so glad she DID *listened* to that still small voice

from deep within...

yet a part of me wishes it didn't have to happen.

Daughter is safe, but in a hole heap of trouble

due to broken trust.

I cannot help but think of how often I have

broken a trust.  Even lied to cover up something

I didn't want to face.  Oh doesn't parenting

some time throw our own weakness right back 

in our faces and make us deal with our own inadequacies?

I am so thankful for REAL forgiveness.  

A true repentant heart is one that the

Lord can take an offense and use it for HIS good.

For that past few days I have been led to read Psalms 91

and today it brought my grieving hurting Mother's heart a much needed

rest.  A rest in my Lord who is there with me

through it all.

Psalms 91

 ¹ He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
       will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
 ² I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
       my God, in whom I trust."
 ³ Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
       and from the deadly pestilence.
 ⁴ He will cover you with his feathers,
       and under his wings you will find refuge;
       his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
 ⁵ You will not fear the terror of night,
       nor the arrow that flies by day,
 ⁶ nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
       nor the plague that destroys at midday.
 ⁷ A thousand may fall at your side,
       ten thousand at your right hand,
       but it will not come near you.
 ⁸ You will only observe with your eyes
       and see the punishment of the wicked.
 ⁹ If you make the Most High your dwelling—
       even the LORD, who is my refuge-
 ¹⁰ then no harm will befall you,
       no disaster will come near your tent.
 ¹¹ For he will command his angels concerning you
       to guard you in all your ways;
 ¹² they will lift you up in their hands,
       so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
 ¹³ You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
       you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
 ¹⁴ "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
       I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
 ¹⁵ He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
       I will be with him in trouble,
       I will deliver him and honor him.
 ¹⁶ With long life will I satisfy him
       and show him my salvation."

Trusting in HIM